It's me. I've been looking at this entirely wrongly.
Not getting the job has not been a bad thing. In fact, it's been a very good thing.
I am NOT what I have seen myself as for so long - a temp who is incapable of securing a permanent job. No.
What I AM is a self-employed contractor who is undertaking temporary jobs to support herself until the BBC discovers that she is a comic writing GENIUS and pays her lots of money to write funny stuff to make people laugh.
See? That's what I am. Self-employed. These people are lucky to have me. When I'm a rich and famous comedy writer (the next Dawn French, if you will!), they'll be sorry they were all so horrid to me.
I'm picking the car up tomorrow. Should be great. I won't be online all next week - I'm going to Motherwell for a few days as work have told me to take a week off - so if anyone needs desparately to contact me, send us an email before this Friday and I'll let you have me mobile number to keep in touch.
Not much else to report. My mates are coming up from London at the beginning of June to play a few gigs in Liverpool. I'm gonna be the rhythm guitarist's Tour Companion for the night of the 8th. He did want me on the 11th as well, but I told him my groupieing services take me to other parts of the world - Halifax!!!
I know, it sounds wrong me being Tour Companion for a guitarist - but he's one hell of a drummer as well, he plays drums down the phone to me sometimes and knows not to talk about drumming terminology with me after certain times of the night. Bless him. I do actually love him in a not altogether friendly but not altogether romantic type way. We are actual soulmates, he's lovely.
Can't wait. I'm gonna take the Friday off work so that me and him can go on one of our Infamous Adventrues together somewhere in the North West during the day. WAHEYYYY!!! I'm also off work on the Monday after so I'll have a brilliant long Groupieing weekend!!!!! WOOOO!!!!!! It'll be brilliant. Just what the doctor ordered.
Anyway I'd best attempt some work. Even though I'm not remotely bothered anymore.
Mood - Very positive, shockingly.
Music - Can't hear anything right now!