So, it's my 21st tomorrow and I'm having my annual Birthday Freakout, which has been happening every year since I turned 18... I don't like getting older. 21 kinda means I have to be mature and stop all this arsing around, doesn't it? 21 means I have to concentrate at uni and start being studious cos I have to get a decent degree. I think it means that I can't watch Pocoyo and Balamory anymore. I think it means that people will start expecting me to Think About My Future. I even think it means that I can't go "squandering" all my money on Goodies tickets... I think this means that I have to Grow Up. I looked in the mirror this morning - I look about 15. There's no way in Hell that I'm old enough to be 21. Freakout Imminent.
On the plus side, I think I'm getting Scissor Sister tickets. And I get to go home a week on Fri for a joint 'celebration' with a friend back home.
I'm confused. I know that 21 is young, but to me it sort of feels much much much older than I am.
Ach.
Mood - So-so
Music - Paul McCartney - Scissor Sisters
Don't worry about getting older. One of my favourite quotes is - "There's no point being grown-up if you can't be childish sometimes". And if being older means you can't squander all your money on Goodies tickets, then I don't want to be older!
urban_spacegirl
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